It’s been a long time since I’ve written on here.
So much has changed - 2020 has been something else.
I could talk about pandemics, lockdowns, and a dozen other bad news things, but I won’t because those things suck.
Seriously, they’re garbage and they lead to people feeling stressed, depressed, and unhappy to the point where they make bad decisions.
And we all know that I like to make bad decisions because I get horny.
But this is really going to be a post about making changes.
Big Change #1
Well, I guess this is tangentially attached to the nonsense going on in the world, but I’ve been working from home since March and so has my husband, Jamie.
For two months of that time, we had the girls home doing remote learning.
As a result, my sexual adventures have fallen off a cliff.
I’ve not been with a man who isn’t my husband since early March or late February - it’s been so long that I can’t remember.
It was pretty challenging for the first month or so and then this kind of malaise set in where I was satisfying myself a lot to just try and keep it out of my thoughts.
That’s when I met Agnes.
I’ve dabbled with having sex with other women in the past, but this was the first time I really committed to it and let myself go.
It’s been wild - several ups and downs. Read this story and I’ll maybe come back and fill in some of the blanks on here over the next few weeks.
Big Change #2
A few months back, a very well connected friend of mine who was aware of Jamie’s functional impotence asked me how it was all going. I admit, it was weird for a male friend to ask me how my husband’s penis was functioning, but our friendship is pretty unusual, so I went with it and filled him in.
He asked me if he could help.
How do you respond to a male friend offering to help with something like?
I said, “Sure, why not.”
He put us in touch with a world renowned urology specialist here in Sydney that taught at one of the universities. She was an expert in correcting the particular type of impotence that Jamie had - there were no physical or psychological reasons, the neurons just weren’t firing the right way.
We thought we’d tried everything. We spent almost five years battling this.
This woman fixed it in a day.
I mean, it took a week or two for everything to get back to perfect working order, but because of the treatment she’s put Jamie on, he’s actually better than new.
His sex drive previously was pretty low, but now, I’d say it’s normal (as opposed to mine which is absurd), and he has no issues “getting ready” at all.
This was somewhat life changing and threw me into a small state of mental crisis - I had written about it back here when this first started becoming a possibility.
Without sounding clickbait-y, honestly, what happened next will surprise you.
I’m not kidding at all - click here to read the story, but also, read it through to the end because honestly, there is an unbelievable twist that leads into Big Change #3.
Big Change #3
Jamie’s recovery from functional impotence and his subsequent adventures in finding himself another woman to occasionally recreational sex with has reshaped a large part of how I see myself as well.
In truth, that was happening anyway.
For a few years, I’d almost started to define myself as this woman with a voracious sexual appetite who hammers through a litany of men for pure physical satisfaction.
And I enjoyed it… Oh man, did I ever enjoy myself - I partied at times like Mick Jagger in the 1970s.
But over the last two years, that lifestyle became a bit boring - when you eat chocolate cake every day, it doesn’t matter how great the cake is, eventually, a slice of Lemon Meringue Pie starts to sound pretty appealing.
Change happens in unexpected ways.
Jamie’s female lover was someone I’d known for decades and suddenly, I found myself spending more time with her as a friend… who also happened to sleep with my husband now.
I found myself not only “ok” with their relationship, but also somewhat excited by it - I found myself “lending” her Jamie and even realizing that there was a certain satisfaction to having him after her.
Now I find myself wondering if maybe I even want to watch them?
Big Change #4
My personal evolution has continued.
In 2019, I started gaming a lot.
I’ve always been a video gamer going back to my high school and university days - I owned every console and played every major game release.
When the girls came along, both Jamie and I turned more to gaming as a hobby - he plays sports games and I am more of a first-person shooter type of girl.
Then lockdown hit and I couldn’t “indulge” in my other hobby, plus I was home a lot, so I started gaming even more.
At the same time, Call of Duty: Warzone was released in mid-March - a battle royale game set in the CoD world… I was hooked.
In June, a friend recommended that I try streaming on Twitch - I had no idea how to do it, but I’m ok with technology, so I thought I’d figure it out. I worked out how to stream from my PS4 through my Mac while adding in a webcam and mic so people could watch me play and chat.
If Warzone hooked me, streaming on Twitch was what solidified the addiction.
I’m a small streamer. At any given time, there are 50ish people in my stream watching me play. Honestly, most of them are simps but I don’t indulge any of that nonsense, I just ignore it for the most part. I chat with people who want to talk about the game or more general stuff and ignore the guys donating or subbing because they’re simps.
In August, I built a crazy new gaming PC - it was embarrassing how much it cost, but it is so good.
I also started the process of upgrading my “home studio” - a corner of our master bedroom. I’ve built new desks, tossed in some RGB lighting, hooked up Alexa, and I got three new monitors this past week.
I’m learning how to play with Mouse and Keyboard after having been on controllers for so long, but that’s just adding to the entertainment.
It will be interesting to see what happens when the world opens back up - I suppose my hobbies will balance themselves out. I’ll spend less time gaming and streaming, and more time on the prowl for men.
That’s about it for now - it’s been a long time between updates.
I will really try and do more of these and use these messages to direct you to stories I post on Medium while also coloring in between the lines to provide some context to things I write about.
I’m also thinking I’m going to use it to be a bit more personal and talk about myself as a person, not just this woman who has irresistable sexual urges.
Hopefully that’s entertaining for you.
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Life Changes Quickly
A GM for a dot-com I worked with went and became a CEO of a gaming company for a bit. He brought me in for some performance work, and it was neat because it was to make console games work on smartphones. The company went belly up, but it was sure interesting to see how the beginning happened.
At the time, I said no way to 3G and HSPA networks, and said with 4G you have a chance, but by that time it was too late. It was very cool as I could see console games in racks and made sure things were optimal. At the time, it was a side job.
Now with 5G, that can be a reality. At my horse farm in Texas, my ping time to servers for google's speed based tests is around 1ms ... youtube TV has 6ms, and given the eye doesn't detect less <500ms very well ... yeah the future is here now.
It is very cool to see some of your other sides, and while I don't game I can appreciate the gamers based on my skills in performance availability and capacity (PAC). My games are making shit work fast for people in mobile arenas.
Can't wait to see your reviews on your monitors!